She shifts attention from selfish need to selfish need. Tears in hand trying to explain a bag filled with the sorry explanations she takes out and use accordingly. Most people will acknowledge vices of substance use or abuse, but what happens when the substance takes on human traits and characteristics, a heart and a name.
She shifts attention from one to the next and back to herself, painting illusions of stability and love, caring and heart. Except for the fact, that it’s all done in the name of selfish game, or gain, as she fills her soul with the hearts of those who loved her. They say loosing the one you love through some form of deceit can create a state of animosity that clouds perception. I wish this was the case, I wish I was just bitter and this was just some jilted ranting.
Let’s call her emotionally dangerous. She is earth but moves like fire, destroying pathways of friendship and love. Her blaze captures you in its brilliance, but eventually the smoke clears and the wind blows and subdues the fire. She is love that seeks the company of a lover and that lover’s friend, a love that draws triangles, dipped in gasoline and then sets it ablaze. I am wind.
Wind is two-spirited, gently and strong, masculine and feminine. It can shift direction in a second. I refuse to carry the stench of blood and deceit on my journey to possibilities. The one that will never carry the sound of your name to bed, like I had done before despite what my spirit guides said. Despite the fact that I saw deceit and danger in your eyes, yet I ventured in the trap you baited. As I stand back, away from your danger, I see the traps you continue to set, baiting lovers and their friends, playing them both against each other, so that they may fight over you.
Sadness is the individual who feels powerless that they feel a need to create their fantasies. Danger is bringing those fantasies to life at the risk of another’s pain. At the risk of broken friendships and hearts…while your tears create doubts in the minds of those you claim to love, but use for your pleasure. But karma has a way of manifesting truths…you probably don’t even know yours.
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